"It's me, your child speaking. I was in a dark place, LORD, and going back to it is not easy. Physically, I was alone and anxious. Emotionally and spiritually, I was terrified. Fear and anger and shame were all I knew. I had no identity. Only full of hate and dread. Not wanting to disappoint you, but afraid I already had. I was fearful that my freedom wouldn't last and that my sins were far too much for anyone to handle. These lies began to seep into my every thought and fear began to rule my every decision. I wanted to protect myself from being vulnerable, even with you. But somehow, LORD, between the hurt and confusion, I believed you wanted me for what I had to offer. Your small, still voice spoke to me in the darkest of places, constantly reminding me "yes, I still love you." Jesus, I knew it then, just as I know now, that you are my portion... it's hard to find meaning in that truth in the midst of the chaos. The truth is, however, that you died for me so that in the dark places, when I begin to give into the lies, I can call onto you, my Father, and you will rescue me and set me free. Not because of anything that I have done, but because of who you are and who you say I am. I am yours. You created me and that alone gives my heart value. I still don't understand the true depth of that, but I know
it's something beautiful."
--Your Daughter.
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine." -Isaiah 43:1
"Because you are precious and honored in my eyes, and I love you..." -Isaiah 43:4
"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." -Psalm 73:26
"'The LORD is my portion,' says my soul, 'therefore I will hope in Him.'" -Lamentations 3:24
